Celebrating Alcohol

I want to write about a topic that will cause a lot of people to be uncomfortable. Alcohol is a threat to our families, our lives and our health. It is the most insidious of all drugs, why, because I can walk into any store and buy it and people think nothing of it. Alcohol is a drug and it has the same effects on your body as other drugs , it alters your reality! I am watching one by one people I love lose everything they have to their lust for it and everyone acts as tho it is not really an issue. I am saddened by the abuse of it and the way it becomes a part of the chemistry of a person's blood. They wake every day and no longer do the people they love become their first thought but when they will drink or how or where does. They wake without the ability to function apart from it. I am desperate for a way to open eyes to see how alcohol has a life of its own and at some point it owns you. Read most of the posts from our children and they celebrate something everyday with it. I am convinced the world will be taken over one person( by alcohol) at a time as people are busy consuming and never present enough to know what is happening. Gone are the days when people consumed to celebrate real things such as a marriage or birth or graduation, no today "I got a pedicure" seems to be enough to insight people to a three day binge I write to set myself free from the responsibility of fixing the broken, see in fact I am powerless, I only have words. I have always had a problem with alcohol myself, if I drink one I seem to drink 3 or 4 whatever is necessary to lose myself . If I drink I am shaking off my inhibitions and about to cut loose. I am pretty able to cut loose without alcohol but with it I am fearless so I understand the drawing power it has, I want to be childlike and carefree, who doesn't? Responsibility keeps me in check. I have no one other than me to pay my bills or to do my job, I must answer to the woman in the mirror. I am watching people lose everything because they cannot control the life they live due in fact to giving over to this lust of the flesh ! I know way to many homes where one person keeps the checks and balances so the other can throw caution to the wind and give over to this demon lust. I write today for one reason and one alone, if you see yourself in my words I am not writing about YOU! If you identify with them then this may be a moment where you want to come clean with YOURSELF! I am not writing about one person but many! I am writing about my life experiences and want to say here "DO NOT LET YOUR LIFE BE OVER TAKEN BY ANYTHING!" Do not lie to the most important person you will ever know "YOU!" Come clean with yourself that is all I can hope for! My writings are in fact the way I purge my own soul so I can clearly see the road before me and learn from my past, these are only meant to release me from my own bondage's, my hope is along the way others may be set free too !

Stillness vs activity

Living must be more than existing! Sorrow and trials are a part of the human existence just as happiness and joy are. When we come to the place where we only function we must step back and reevaluate ! As a physical being I am just as the animals , it is my spirit that gives me a step up in the order of life. I must honor that order and become all it means to be human. I must take authority over what I can. Their are times when the physical body I have been given, limits me, holds me down but my spirit it has the ability to soar over this constraint. I will be more than my body allows me. I will find ways to overcome my handicap. I will become a vessel that lets flow through it the life essence and to me the life essence is love! I can some days only live on my sofa but it is those days I am determined to reach out more. I really think God in His infinite wisdom knows people like me would never stop being physical and explore the spiritual, if we were not made to by some inconvenience such as a physical barrier like seizures or say MS. God knows some of us are prone to just doing and never take the time to "BE." Being is part of the human and we must embrace it and nurture it just as we exercise our flesh! So today after many days of good health a person I love dearly reminder me to write. Share my uniqueness with other special people who may not be feeling as well as I am today !
These words and thoughts I dedicate to my Sister MaryBeth ! I love you and hope your body heals as a result of love extended from my heart to yours ! I love you !