Family......getting it right!

Raising a family must be about the hardest job in the world! Before I had children I knew everything there was about raising them. Then they came bursting into my life all squirmy and loud and demanding beautiful! It was love from the moment I even thought I could be pregnant. My love for Brad grew deeper with each pound I gained. I must say as difficult as it was in those early years where I had 2 in diapers it could never prepare me for parenting adult children. All the sickness and emergency room visits could not prepare me for the greatest job I faced, being a mother to adult children.
Adult children are a whole new world. The love and acceptance you need to have gets put in perspective and challenged daily. I thought I was a kind, loving and accepting person, then my own flesh and blood challenged me, they called my bluff. I have 3 children , 2 boys, 1 girl and believe me as babies and young children I thought the road was hard but in hind sight it was amazing. It was days filled with learning and exploring for each of us. My children taught me more and inspired me to seek a deeper understanding of the world I lived in. I also learned to put the needs of my family above my own and this was a great accomplishment considering how self centered I was. I can thank my husband and children for helping me become a better human and giving me a chance to really learn what love and family really is.
Today as a mother I am faced with parenting John , Chase and Abigale as tho I have some insight into the world. At times I am their friend and confidant but also their voice of reason. Two of my children are gay and that really makes my job even harder. In my life I have never felt a same sex attraction, so how do I minister to those who do? The dilemma is one I hurdle on a moment to moment basis. Fear overwhelmed me when Chase told me he was gay. Fear for him and how in his life he most assuredly was harmed by the words of my own prejudice. I had to ask him to forgive me. I had to work thru my doubts and fears too. Times can be very hard for a family when you add a new dimension like homosexuality. I was trying hard to understand him with out making this difference he faced about me. It hasn't been to long since I found out his sister Abby was living out her difference in secret. Life for anyone who feels different is hard but being homosexual in a bible believing family must make it almost impossible to feel like you have a place in this world, let alone this family.
I am forever grateful for my children because again they have helped me become more than the narrow minded woman I once was. I am a good mother and learning every day how to get this job done right and in part because I have learned the world is not just what I think it is but it is so much more! So for now I will close but this story is far from over.
I am committed to writing about my experiences and hope to share them here with you , God and for my own enrichment and reflection. Till then!