Broken open

Life has a way of breaking us open and spilling us out.  My ego has always been a problem. My ego has always needed me to be smart and have all the answers or funny and the life of the party. Every time I had all the answers my soul was being blocked from touching the soul of another.  Man is a soul who inhabits a body, the flesh just a temporary dwelling place. In today's world you would think the flesh more important than the soul they way we glorify looks. It is today that I declare my soul is me and that is enough. I am in the process of realizing that my flesh will fail me but my soul it will rise from the ashes and live on. Today I will feed my soul and worry less about what I feed my flesh. Today I want to be free from the life I have been living and instead find the beauty in life even when life seems to be working against me and those I love. I am broken open and my flesh bleeds but no more than my heart and soul. I cry out for more and less, I petition God to help me become all I can be from the inside out. I want to be free of the bondage's of the cares of this life and become a loving soul who has ego in check. I want to be pleasing to God and able to love myself. I want my love and gentle heart to be what people see when they meet me. I want to be broken open so my truest essence can be released. I have been broken in so many ways, broken by the cares of life, the death of loved ones and it was the death of the ones I have loved most in life that made me want more from life. So broken open is the new me, broken and spilling out, nothing to hide, free from the confines of my ego and the arrogance of my youth. I am going to be free and broken but in truth never better than I am right here and now!