My son Chase came home recently and we sat at my kitchen table that morning and spoke of his life. Chase is the middle child of three, my oldest a boy and my youngest a girl. I watched my son struggle with who he is. I watched as he struggled in every aspect of his life and felt paralyzed by fear. I saw in his eyes a man held captive by his own body and its desires. I saw a man who has prayed to God asking to be set free from these desires. I sat there with this man across the table and felt absolute pride. He is a man who is working out his life before God and with God. He is a man afraid to disappoint others and I so badly wanted to have the power to set him free, yet God stays silent, so who am I?
I felt absolute joy when I realized my son is a man of God who thinks before he acts but that same thought made me sad because I realized the bondage he is in is because of the fear of letting go. I saw a strong independent man who loves deeply and is honorable. A man with gifts and talents that are held captive because of this impasse in his life.
I will put my fears to rest because I saw the maturity of a man finding his way in the world. Chase and God are working their relationship out and neither need me to get the job done but I was happy he felt confidence in my love for him and shared with me his doubts.
I guess what I am saying is Chase loves God .......what more could I hope for?
I want the world to know when you think you have all the answers ...... you may be confronted with your own ineptness. Let Love guide you in all things !
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